2009, we are only 48 hours away from 2010.
It amases me how fast time goes by, even daily. When I sit down, drink a can of soda, and look at the clock again, hours have already gone by. Not by days though, I feel this year went slower than anything. Especially after I began attending a new school. Each day was a hassle. Maybe because I don’t enjoy or cannot appreciate my life as much as I should at the moment. As I reminisce back to the beginnings of 2009; how much I have grown, how much I have changed, how many circumstances I have gotten into, how many wrongdoings I have engaged into, how many times I broke down, how much I have realized, how much I have learned, how much I have lost, but also how much I have gained.

This new year of 2010, I don’t want to be the person(s) that I have been in 2009. I want to change, find my true identity, who I really am, and for what purpose I have been sent into this world.

I’ve had bottomless up’s and down’s this year. Even when I thought it was smooth or well, it wasn’t. If that even makes sense, but in 2010.. I want to find a new me. Not the “me” in myself that has infinite different personalities, but the REAL ME. “The one and only”

It always made me curious how people find that one “thing” that means the whole world to them, the moral that they live by, whether it maybe charity, justice, hope, patience, humility, fortitude, faith, grace, or whichever one, I am starting to believe I have found mine. Truth; Honesty.

I realized that truthfulness and honesty are my top virtues. It is the moral that hurts and angers me the most when it is broken. I have been dealing with fakers all my life, chasing after the right one. I am not a hypocrite, because I damn right believe I am one of them too. But I don’t want to be.. anymore.

This new year, I want to chase after for my virtues. Whatever situation or circumstance I may be thrown into, whether it may be beneficial to me or not, I am going to stick by the truth. I don’t want to live this life full of lies. I want to tear down the heavy masque.

I will stop lying, hurting people, prejudge people, steal, nor look down upon any.
I know for a fact the “steal” one is going to be a hard one, I am so..materialistic.
I will not let anyone of anything bring me down or change every bit in me. No matter what circumstances, I will stand strong with my head held high.

Speaking of that word.. I want a tattoo of it now!
I don’t think I’ll ever regret, since it’ll always be a keepsake.

P.S: I almost forgot! “Simplicity” is an important one for me too. Maybe that is why I love the color white so much. Clear everything!